Edmonton

We are going to Edmonton for a shopping trip! Super excited...taking in West Ed, Ikea, and of course a football game. I have list after list made of what I want to buy, where I want to buy it from, how much I will be spending, what colors of shoes I want, etc. I have new music downloaded on my Ipod ready for the trip. I have a wonderful sister ready to take us in and bake me a cake. I have wonderful in laws who are taking the trip with us.

I also have huge apprehension.

Weird, right? Or at least I thought it was until I mentioned it to Mitch last night and he said he's feeling the same thing. I start to feel panicky at the thought of bringing Tyler back to Edmonton. My sister lives only blocks from the hospital and is where we stayed when Ty was in for surgery. We went to West Ed the day before the surgery to take our minds of the gravity of our trip.

We travelled this road six months ago to have our baby boy's chest broken open

I'm getting emotional just writing this. I think merely thinking of Edmonton brings back the memories of that time and how hard it was. God has been good and gracious and Tyler thrives now. We have nothing but praise for the way things have turned out. However, Edmonton is where we spent some of our darkest days. I think all three of us bear scars from the experience.

So we go to Edmonton and remember. I think remembering is so important. I'll probably tell a few strangers in the mall about Tyler. I might even walk by the hospital. And then I'll kiss my boy and thank God for every minute with him.