Morning Reflecting

So my first day of work is done! I actually had a great day, and I'm so excited for the future at this place. Camp Ministry. So good. I was kept busy all day which was great because it meant that I didn't have time to think about the fact that I was without my baby all day. However as I walked up our walkway to the house and saw Mitch and Tyler waiting in the window for me, Tyler bouncing up and down with glee to see me, I cried.

I thought about it a lot last night, trying to balance my perspective on becoming a part time working mom. On one hand I could look at it this way: I have to spend 2.5 days a week away from Tyler, possibly missing important things, trusting others to care for him, and only getting a few precious hours in those evenings to spend time with him. However, I'm choosing to see this new life in a different way: I have found a job that I know I will both love and feel fulfilled in, and that I can also work part time in, allowing me to spend 4.5 WONDERFUL days at home with my son. I get to help bring in part of our income so we are able to maintain the lifestyle that we enjoy, and I am able to get out of the house every now and then for some sanity time. And on those days when I'm gone, I have incredible family and a wonderful husband to care for Tyler WELL.
So. That's what I've been processing. I know that I knew this all beforehand, but it always changes when it is actually happening instead of just being thought about. This morning I got up early to get ready, enjoy breakfast, and drink my coffee...and if Tyler doesn't wake up soon I may just have to go in there and do it for him to say hello before Aunty Holly gets here.