On having two

So it's Friday of my first week home alone.  Mitch was able to take one week off work which was such a blessing.  Sunday night of last week I bawled my eyes out (exactly the same scenario as when Tyler was born...) but it's been a really good week on my own.  I'm loving having two.  Especially two boys! It's not even an indifferent "I'm glad we have Logan and he just happens to be a boy"...it's a LOVE of being able to call them "the boys" and hearing Tyler talk about being and having a brother, and hearing my husband refer to his sons.  And watching Logan's squishy face as Tyler vigorously hugs him, and shares his most special and beloved item in the whole world with him - his blanket. Oh blessings.

I love having a newborn and toddler at the same time.  It means I get to chat about everything under the sun with my big guy as we make breakfast together and then pick up my littlest boy and cuddle him as I build blocks with the other hand.  I get the still of the early morning with quiet and curious big blue eyes staring at me after feeding, and then 20 minutes later I get a gleeful good morning and excitement exclaimed "mommy's awake!!" as I climb out of bed.  I get to watch the tenderness of my husband as he lays on the floor next to Logan to make eye contact, and then see the energy he loves to spend as he indulges in Tyler's requests (again and again) "Daddy, hide!"  or "Daddy catch me!" or "Daddy play 'you can't get past me!'".

There have definitely been a few growing pains as our family stretches to include one more member, as a two year old used to being the centre of many people's universe is adjusting to sharing the spotlight, as his parents get used to much less sleep, as I'm still not really able to leave the house with two to do much more than drive, but these things are normal.  Every day is better than the last and I woke up this morning feeling so good.  5 hours of sleep straight between a night feed may have helped, but that's beside the point.

I don't feel like I'm in a hurry to rush anything these days.  The house will get cleaned when I feel up to it.  I will master the art of keeping house, cleaning, cooking, and mothering two eventually.  For now I'm just going to concentrate on mothering two.  On playing with blocks, colouring, feeding, adoring, reading books, and making sure I remember to eat lunch.  Before 2:00.  And loving, loving, loving.

I do.  I just love my life.