I Haven't Even Heard You Cry
Aaron Lines
Well I don't drive through the night these days
It's just not a chance I'm willing to take
And I don't spend my money foolishly
Cause there's important things that you're gonna need
You already got a hold on me
And I haven't even heard you cry
I haven't even looked into your eyes
I haven't held you one time but you've changed my life
And I don't even know your name
But I know I'll never be the same
Oh I can't wait to show you you can fly
And I haven't even heard you cry
You might look like your mom, you might look like me
I don't really care as long as you're healthy
And I'll make mistakes there's no doubt
But loves one thing you won't live without
Cause you own a place in my heart now
And I haven't even heard you cry
I haven't even looked into your eyes
I haven't held you one time but you've changed my life
And I don't even know your name
But I know I'll never be the same
Oh I can't wait to show you you can fly
And I haven't even heard you cry
Well I don't even know your name
But I know I'll never be the same
Oh I can't wait to show you you can fly
I'm thinking about first steps and bike rides
And I haven't even heard you cry
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
umm...
I have a foot sticking out of the side of my stomach, my husband's t-shirt on, and a spoon sitting beside a cherry pie that has been used several times today. Oh please, come soon baby, before I break a rib, lose all self esteem, and the rest of my self control.
On the bright side...finished season 4 of Grey's today...forgot how good that final episode was! On to season 5.
On the bright side...finished season 4 of Grey's today...forgot how good that final episode was! On to season 5.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
I don't know how to say I don't know!
Had an interesting piece of self-realization today that I figured I'd share:
First of all, there are a few things you need to know about me.
1. The last few places I've worked, I have been in the position to be the person answering questions. I love being in that position. I like helping to solve problems, pointing people in the right direction, and being able to provide information when needed. I like being the 'go to' person. I try my harderst to know as much as possible about every topic that might come up so that I can be as effective as possible.
2. Over the last few weeks, I have become increasingly ornery. I skipped church two weeks ago because I didn't want to be around people. I am incredibly cynical and emotional. Mitch continuously has to remind me to 'be nice'.
So here's the thing: why are people suddenly driving me nuts? Because I can't answer their questions!!
"What are you having?"
"When do you think the baby will be born?"
"Are you nervous for labour?"
"Are you ready for the baby?
I don't know, I don't know, I DON'T KNOW!! The baby wasn't in the right position so we don't know what it is. Trust me, if I knew when it was going to be born, I would be a lot more relaxed right now. I don't know what to expect so I don't really fear labour. I have no idea if I'm ready...I guess we'll find out when the baby gets here. And so on and so forth. So really...the problem is not with those asking me questions, because I know they mean well and are asking out of love. The problem is with me (and my pride?). I like knowing the answers to things. And trust me...no one wants the answers to these questions more than me :)
So my goal from now 'till baby time is to be nice. To answer people graciously when they ask, remembering at ALL times that they ask because they care.
It's a good thing I've got Mitch around who will continue to remind me to be nice when I continue to screw up...
First of all, there are a few things you need to know about me.
1. The last few places I've worked, I have been in the position to be the person answering questions. I love being in that position. I like helping to solve problems, pointing people in the right direction, and being able to provide information when needed. I like being the 'go to' person. I try my harderst to know as much as possible about every topic that might come up so that I can be as effective as possible.
2. Over the last few weeks, I have become increasingly ornery. I skipped church two weeks ago because I didn't want to be around people. I am incredibly cynical and emotional. Mitch continuously has to remind me to 'be nice'.
So here's the thing: why are people suddenly driving me nuts? Because I can't answer their questions!!
"What are you having?"
"When do you think the baby will be born?"
"Are you nervous for labour?"
"Are you ready for the baby?
I don't know, I don't know, I DON'T KNOW!! The baby wasn't in the right position so we don't know what it is. Trust me, if I knew when it was going to be born, I would be a lot more relaxed right now. I don't know what to expect so I don't really fear labour. I have no idea if I'm ready...I guess we'll find out when the baby gets here. And so on and so forth. So really...the problem is not with those asking me questions, because I know they mean well and are asking out of love. The problem is with me (and my pride?). I like knowing the answers to things. And trust me...no one wants the answers to these questions more than me :)
So my goal from now 'till baby time is to be nice. To answer people graciously when they ask, remembering at ALL times that they ask because they care.
It's a good thing I've got Mitch around who will continue to remind me to be nice when I continue to screw up...
Monday, January 25, 2010
What I've Learned
Five weeks. FIVE WEEKS. That's how long we've got until I'm due. Yes I know, the baby will probably be late, but still. Five weeks.
So I thought I'd take this time to reflect on pregnancy. Here are a few of the things I've learned during pregnancy, in no particular order of importance or occurrence:
1. Pregnancy in the later stage can cause cankles. They tell me these will go away once the swelling goes down. All I can say is: they'd better.
2. Bladder control is completely lost when standing while baby decides to direct a well thought out kick right to it. Haven't peed my pants yet, but I've come darn close.
3. Hugging is not easy anymore when there's a basketball between the two of you.
4. Heartburn can strike at any time for any reason.
5. Emotionalrampages tendencies can strike at any time for any reason.
6. Grunting every time I move is perfectly acceptable, but my husband needs to be reminded of this every now and then. If he comments too many times...well...see #5.
7. Rolling over at night requires much thought and contemplation. Unless I have to pee.
8. I didn't know it was possible to pee that many times during the night.
9. Men generally don't know how to respond to a pregnant woman, so expect phrases like "you're HUGE!" or "wow, you got big fast, hey?" or, my favorite thus far "hey can you stand up? I wanna get a better look at you...I bet I can guess the gender!"
10. Feeling the baby move around all day is the most wonderful feeling
11. No chair is comfortable for more than five minutes
12. From seeing how he's been through the pregnancy, Mitch is going to be a fantastic dad
13. Every shirt will get stains on it the first time I wear it. No more of this whole 'wearing more than once between washes' jazz
And that's all I can think of right now...I've learned lots of practical medical stuff too, but that's boring. Come on, 5 weeks...
So I thought I'd take this time to reflect on pregnancy. Here are a few of the things I've learned during pregnancy, in no particular order of importance or occurrence:
1. Pregnancy in the later stage can cause cankles. They tell me these will go away once the swelling goes down. All I can say is: they'd better.
2. Bladder control is completely lost when standing while baby decides to direct a well thought out kick right to it. Haven't peed my pants yet, but I've come darn close.
3. Hugging is not easy anymore when there's a basketball between the two of you.
4. Heartburn can strike at any time for any reason.
5. Emotional
6. Grunting every time I move is perfectly acceptable, but my husband needs to be reminded of this every now and then. If he comments too many times...well...see #5.
7. Rolling over at night requires much thought and contemplation. Unless I have to pee.
8. I didn't know it was possible to pee that many times during the night.
9. Men generally don't know how to respond to a pregnant woman, so expect phrases like "you're HUGE!" or "wow, you got big fast, hey?" or, my favorite thus far "hey can you stand up? I wanna get a better look at you...I bet I can guess the gender!"
10. Feeling the baby move around all day is the most wonderful feeling
11. No chair is comfortable for more than five minutes
12. From seeing how he's been through the pregnancy, Mitch is going to be a fantastic dad
13. Every shirt will get stains on it the first time I wear it. No more of this whole 'wearing more than once between washes' jazz
And that's all I can think of right now...I've learned lots of practical medical stuff too, but that's boring. Come on, 5 weeks...
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Of work, macchiatos, and the joy of children
So it turns out that when you start your day off by having your husband bring you Starbucks, it just means that you have a much loftier height from which to fall when your day goes south than on a typical day. (**side note - every wednesday is now caramel macchiato day until mat leave...I have declared it thus)
No, I don't want to go into details about my day...I just wanted to tell you what I learned while surviving it.
On another topic, I am so excited. I love anticipation. I actually don't like surprises because I feel that it deprives me the joy of anticipating the coming event. Something that has really been bugging me lately is the amount of times I hear, after expressing my excitement, "oh don't worry...it won't be nearly as fun as you think once the baby arrives", or something to that extent. I realize that I haven't had the sleepless nights, or had to rock a screaming baby, or had my hair pulled out, or had to clean up puke 3 times in one night yet, but I know that it's all coming and I'm still excited. Becoming parent is such a blessing, and I can't wait to jump in with Mitch.
No, I don't want to go into details about my day...I just wanted to tell you what I learned while surviving it.
On another topic, I am so excited. I love anticipation. I actually don't like surprises because I feel that it deprives me the joy of anticipating the coming event. Something that has really been bugging me lately is the amount of times I hear, after expressing my excitement, "oh don't worry...it won't be nearly as fun as you think once the baby arrives", or something to that extent. I realize that I haven't had the sleepless nights, or had to rock a screaming baby, or had my hair pulled out, or had to clean up puke 3 times in one night yet, but I know that it's all coming and I'm still excited. Becoming parent is such a blessing, and I can't wait to jump in with Mitch.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
The first day back at work after Christmas holidays sucks. I sat down at my desk this morning and looked at the decorations that I'll have to take down, the leftover chocolates that have been dropped off (LOOKED, but didn't eat...look at that self control!), wondered what I'm going listen to now that Christmas music is over and done with, and felt that 'after Christmas' feeling. So instead of sitting here sadly with nothing to do, I've decided to make a list of looking back. Here are the highlights of my year, in no particular order of event or importance. Just simply the good things of 2009.
I'll start off with the obvious: We got pregnant! Mitch and I began the conversation of when to start our family...oh...probably 3 months after we got married haha. It took me three years, but I finally convinced him that it was the right time, and we found out we were expecting in June of 09. We are ecstatic, and are greatly anticipating the arrival of our first child due March 2, 2010.
Going to California was a major highlight. Mitch and I love travelling together and really wanted to go somewhere before we started our family. We had such a good time together, and a sentence you will hear come out of my mouth at least once every few weeks is "hey Mitch, remember that time we went to California? That was fun, hey?". This question is always met with eyes being rolled and the response "Yes, Jos...I remember".
We spent 9 wonderful days exploring beaches, going to ball games, Disneylanding and Sea Worlding it up, and, of course, eating. It was so good.
Another fun trip I took this year was one to Edmonton with my lifegroup girls. We did a weekend Ikea trip and had so much fun. We packed the 4 of us into a mini van and did our best to fill every single open space of that van with purchases from Ikea. We did pretty well! I have to say that we have been so blessed by friendships this year, and the 3 couples in our life group have been such a gift to us. It's so good to have support and friendship like that. The girl's trip is a big highlight of the year.
Okay one more trip to add to the highlight list: BC! In April we went to Abbotsford to celebrate Sharalin and Jesse's wedding. We have so many wonderful friends in BC and any time we travel out there to see them is a big highlight for me. Mitch understands my close friendships with the girls out there and has been really good about making it a priority for me to visit them probably close to once a year.
Most years I could say that all of summer is a highlight, but this year summer was pretty brutal...worst weather ever! However, there's one week for sure that sticks out in my mind, which was the week we spent up at Joel and Dominique's cabin at Shell Lake. We swam and boated and water skied and fished and suntanned and played games and watched TLC and ate and minigolfed...it makes me smile just thinking about it. Another shout out to good friends. And good friends who have cabins.
Working on our yard was a good thing this year. I don't have a picture of what it looks like thus far, but we have our driveway and lawn done, and two trees planted. It's nowhere near being finished, but it's so nice to have it started at least. I feel like a real live homeowner with grass in the backyard. I really look forward to playing with our kids out back in our nice big yard!
Okay so that's my list. It's not inclusive, and if I have forgotten anything good, I blame it on the pregnancy because apparently my memory has reduced itself to have about a 30 second retention limit. This year God has been so good to us, and I am so excited to see what this next year will bring.
I'll start off with the obvious: We got pregnant! Mitch and I began the conversation of when to start our family...oh...probably 3 months after we got married haha. It took me three years, but I finally convinced him that it was the right time, and we found out we were expecting in June of 09. We are ecstatic, and are greatly anticipating the arrival of our first child due March 2, 2010.
Going to California was a major highlight. Mitch and I love travelling together and really wanted to go somewhere before we started our family. We had such a good time together, and a sentence you will hear come out of my mouth at least once every few weeks is "hey Mitch, remember that time we went to California? That was fun, hey?". This question is always met with eyes being rolled and the response "Yes, Jos...I remember".
We spent 9 wonderful days exploring beaches, going to ball games, Disneylanding and Sea Worlding it up, and, of course, eating. It was so good.
Another fun trip I took this year was one to Edmonton with my lifegroup girls. We did a weekend Ikea trip and had so much fun. We packed the 4 of us into a mini van and did our best to fill every single open space of that van with purchases from Ikea. We did pretty well! I have to say that we have been so blessed by friendships this year, and the 3 couples in our life group have been such a gift to us. It's so good to have support and friendship like that. The girl's trip is a big highlight of the year.
Okay one more trip to add to the highlight list: BC! In April we went to Abbotsford to celebrate Sharalin and Jesse's wedding. We have so many wonderful friends in BC and any time we travel out there to see them is a big highlight for me. Mitch understands my close friendships with the girls out there and has been really good about making it a priority for me to visit them probably close to once a year.
Most years I could say that all of summer is a highlight, but this year summer was pretty brutal...worst weather ever! However, there's one week for sure that sticks out in my mind, which was the week we spent up at Joel and Dominique's cabin at Shell Lake. We swam and boated and water skied and fished and suntanned and played games and watched TLC and ate and minigolfed...it makes me smile just thinking about it. Another shout out to good friends. And good friends who have cabins.
Working on our yard was a good thing this year. I don't have a picture of what it looks like thus far, but we have our driveway and lawn done, and two trees planted. It's nowhere near being finished, but it's so nice to have it started at least. I feel like a real live homeowner with grass in the backyard. I really look forward to playing with our kids out back in our nice big yard!
Okay so that's my list. It's not inclusive, and if I have forgotten anything good, I blame it on the pregnancy because apparently my memory has reduced itself to have about a 30 second retention limit. This year God has been so good to us, and I am so excited to see what this next year will bring.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
A Good Day
It's only 11:53 and I can already tell you that today is going to be a fantastic day. Well...okay this whole week will be pretty good. Today is my first day off for my Christmas holidays and I'm celebrating. Have BEEN celebrating, actually. Mitch and I went to the Keg last night which is my FAVORITE place to eat, but for obvious reasons we don't go very often. This morning I had a good friend over for breakfast and we had a nice visit and did a puzzle together. Now I'm listening to christmas music, feeling my baby kick like a champion, watching the snow fall outside, and I am content. This afternoon I'm going for a massage, and then tomorrow is breakfast with my mom and sister in the morning, and manicures in the afternoon with my mother in law and sister in law. I feel a very deep relaxing calm settling over me which is much welcomed. Life is good.
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